:DSaturday, August 05, 2006

my train of thoughts

i was lying on the floor watching tv, then i thought of the weird back thingy that nad does. i tried to do it, but instead, i plomped on the ground (duhh). lying there outstretched got me thinking of the feet-touching-the-ground-at-the-back-of-your-head thing which then made me think of the backward rolls yi heng did during the game. backward rolls reminded me of gymnastics during PE in tkgs, which in turn reminded me of the forward rolls coach asked us to do.

in short,

back thingy - feet-touching-the-ground-at-the-back-of-your-head thingy - backward rolls - gymnastics - forward rolls - coach and softball.

well, if ur wondering, my sball coach made us do forward rolls as punishments, along many other things. especially since i was rather prone to her scoldings. there was once, she was angry with me and told me to do duckwalk from one end to the field and back, not stopping till she told me to do so. or run ard the field till she tells me to stop. and it's easy for her to forget me, cos the trg still goes on. and yea, i wasnt the only one usually.. oh and a convo i remember(there were many similar to these), i missed many of the balls while fielding:

her: ahh! dont train anymore. go away
me: coach i wanna train
her: no. how to train? you cant even catch a ball
me: i'll catch the next one

- out of nowhere she bats a ball for me to catch. i wasnt expecting it so yea i bloody hell missed. i can still remember taking that deep breath, feeling so damn irritated and sad at the same time-

her: there. go away. go do tumble.
me: but coach i want to train
her: I SAID GO AWAY.

and there you go. it was heart-shattering and disappointing. i just felt like strangling her, but more than anything else, i wanted to strangle myself for being useless. (yea, i know it's only sball, nth to die for, but wth it was in-the-moment man)

i remember doing forward rolls till the end of trg. she totally ignored me. i was trying hard not to cry but i did anyway. it makes me miserable i guess, to know that i've let myself and her down, to the extent that she gave up on me. but she's a confusing person really. if i just kept quiet and not say "i want to train", she'd say i'm weak and not determined. but when rebutt, she wont listen anyway. it's weird really. i know she gave up on my fielding, so i cld only depend on my batting :)

but then, i cant help but respect, dislike and admire her all at the same time. see, she had cancer last yr (or was it 2 yrs ago), and delayed her operation just to train and attend seniors' game even though she knew the risks involved. it was a point of time when she was really sick. and i heard this yr she had a really bad gastric infection thinger but she attended the games all the same. she refused to retire last yr cos we didnt reach the semis. oh well.

but hey, they're all memories now. bad and good ones. -sigh-. weird eh, how memories come about?

( 9:43 PM )

i am

nadhirah
march baby:))
25-03-91
fsps
tkgs-1e9-2e9'o5
tjc - TA 1E'o6
hockey
02!
professional camwhore
cheese is good
i love junk food.
blue black pink red silver
sweet movies are the love (:
so are horror and chickflicks
yeah mystery, murder and gore aren't bad either
my hot guys are: IAN, JESSE, DREW, ZUMI, SRH and many many more
fadedcamera@hotmail.com

i know

NADIRAH
FADZ
SYAZWAN
HANISAH and HAZIYAH
RAIHAN
KHAIRUNNISA
ZAHIDAH
HUDA.
HANEE.
AISHA.
NADIAH
ATIQAH
IZYAN
AIDA
DINIE
BALA
AZRI
HAJJAR
SERENE
SHIRLEEN LOW
ANGEL
VIVIAN
ZUO QI
RONG QI
CATHERINE
WEINENG
RUZANNA
GV
DIYANAH

i want

guitar lessons
one guitar string
mp3
own room
sexy camera
a horse
a cat!
blue or pink car
or black car with HOT pink patterns (i saw once)
to grow taller
abs! (hello situps)
a huge tub of ben & jerry's
House Season 3(!!)
a sense of direction.for once.
unlimited excuses not to do maths homework
FUN
prince charming?? nahh
to rockclimb
kayak
play ice hockey!
to do cool inline-skating tricks
after i learn how to skate
a basketball
white highlights
to play paintball!

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